Blog readers are to Blog as the front row is to performance. Yet Blog is also personal. Blog is (or, given the form’s steep decline in popularity over the last decade, was) curated and semipersonalized intimacy, the process of CC’ing personal reflections to a hundred or a thousand of your closest friends.
Author Archives: [Sarah] Cavar
when good things happen to bad years
If pressed, I’d call 2020 the best awful year I’ve ever had.
dispatch in the midst/math
It’s Sunday, the midst/math is over, and I finally feel together-enough to post.
3 weeks in
I don’t think I fully believed I would be Living in California until I got here, and even then, it was iffy.
things I hope to remember
I don’t know how to say goodbye to this house, not only because my memory keeps it close, but also because it hasn’t quite sunk in yet that I am Moving Out.
cavar, sarah, & the they we are
This (k)new name, for me, is not a tie-cut but an invitation.
[reading list] BLACK MAD LIVES MATTER
Last Updated 2/04/21 [If you’re in need, find a comprehensive list of mental health resources here.] Black people stim. Black people have intrusive thoughts — including violent ones. Black people hear and see things others do not hear or see. Black people have panic attacks. Black people have meltdowns. Black people are hyperactive. Black peopleContinue reading “[reading list] BLACK MAD LIVES MATTER”
A hearty hand-flap for Mel Baggs
Mel lived every day in direct defiance of death. As in, laughing heartily and heavily in the face of death, all between poems and blog posts and crochet patterns.
oh glorious routine
All day it’s felt like winter break. No, all day it’s felt like an interminable scene posing as winter break, not doing particularly well at it, because rather than leaving me warm it’s leaving me hollow. I did my usual routine today, the one I’ve grown intimately familiar with in this week that’s felt bothContinue reading “oh glorious routine”
considering neuro-accountability
What behavior can be positively, or neutrally, attributed to neurodivergence, and what (regardless of attribution) is neither positive nor neutral, and must be improved in order to live in good faith with other human beings?